"More Than A Conqueror! "

Mesha Lewis

I can honestly say that from the year 2016 - until 2021. I didn’t love myself to my full potential. I was searching for love in all the wrong places. I just wanted to have that feeling of someone truly loving me unconditionally. I put up with things I knew were not best for me. 

Many times, we get blinded by potential and fail to recognize things for what it is. This has been the circumstances of my previous friendship and intimate relationships. The last straw was in 

early 2021, when I experienced my first abusive relationship which included mental and physical abuse. I felt so low, I couldn’t even be a full mother to my child as my son needed. This abuse kept reoccurring until I woke up and took a stand against it. 

Literally that Summer... my small business was continuing to grow and God was showing me so much favor in what I was doing , but the person I THOUGHT I loved .. secretly hated it. I remember coming home after a successful event, walking into his home and he IMMEDIATELY started assaulting me. I mean he beat me up so badly that I couldn’t go home to my parents, to hide the bruises on my face and arms back, and neck. Literally didn’t want the outside world to see me. I cried out to God asking; why do I keep running into these same cycles. Then the Holy Spirit inspired me to go to YouTube and as soon as I clicked the app, there was a sermon by Sarah Jake called Girl Get up. The sermon deeply resonated with me and made me realize that it was nothing else but God capturing my attention.

 Once the guy I was dating at the time left the house to do his running around … I packed ALL MY THINGS AND LEFT Of course, you know how narcissists are.. When he saw I was officially gone, he tried his best to reel me back in… BUT I WASN’T HAVING IT. I vowed to God and myself that I would NEVER LOVE ANYONE MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF… I WOULD NEVER ACCEPT THINGS THAT I KNOW WAS NOT WHAT GOD WANTED FOR ME. I can’t believe I was going to move to Texas with this man. Can you imagine what my life would have been like?

 I’m so thankful for the power of God because even in your lowest moments, He is still working. Once I REALLY LET THAT GO AND HONORED WHAT I SAID TO GOD--my life changed TREMENDOUSLY.. I haven’t been this happy in my life in a long time . It’s like God was really waiting on me to remove myself from these dead situations so He can really show me what He has in store for me … I’ll always remember June 23rd, 2021. That day, God came and rescued me. I am not perfect but I’m thankful I’m not where I used to be … I advocate for women and give advice to any woman I encounter, whether young or old--to LOVE THEIR SELF FIRST.. Self-love is the best love; which is God’s love.

Mesha Lewis