A letter to my son AJ
Yolanda

AJ today is your 1st Mother's Day away from me. As I sit in my room looking at your picture, clutching and hugging the warm gray scarf you brought for me just this past Christmas. I'm being reminded of how thoughtful, gentle, and kind you are. You were that one that always checked in to say "how is my wonderful mother of mine”? I long to hear those words from you. I am so proud that you were my son, my baby. Doing this life without you has changed me. I am not the same person on the inside. How can I be? One thing that will never change is the love I hold in my heart for you. Nothing including any amount of time that goes by could change that. I want you to know how much you are loved and that you are missed in my world. No day goes by without thinking of you. My sometime uncontrollable tears still flow because in the earth rim I was your mom and still find it hard to believe that your body and your presence are gone from me on this earth. When I'm asked how am I during? I say, ok.. fine.., one day at a time... but the truth is it will take me a lifetime to learn how to live without your presence here. Please also know that my mind still talks to you, my heart still looks for you. But my soul knows you are at peace. That is what brings me joy to know that your soul is with God. You are my twinkle in the stars at night that shine bright, you are my angel that watches over me from heaven. It is this thought that keeps me going each day to take another step. I miss you A J, rest in peace my love until we see each other again and we will.

I will Love you forever. MOM